reality

you know you’re inlove when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.

when i see you…

the world. It stops and all that exists for me, is you and my eyes staring at you. There’s nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow. The world just stops and it’s a beautiful place and there’s only you. Just you. And my eyes staring at you. When you’re gone, the world starts again and I don’t like it as much. I can live in it, but I don’t like i. I just walk around in it and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again. I love it when it stops. It’s the best thing I’ve ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that is why I stare at you. 

 

….

if we can survive this

i think we can survive a whole lot more than this..

keeping the faith

thank you for loving me. I appreciate all your efforts. 

but why  do you have to include her in the picture?

i am trying hard not to let jealousy consume me. 

where is this going?

honestly? i don’t know. 

all i know is that right now, you love me and i love you. and to hell with the universe. 

but it would definitely feel good if this would end up where we both want it to be.

It just stopped beating.

 And for the first time in my life, I had that feeling. You know, like the world is moving all around you, all beneath you, all inside you, and you’re floating. Flaoting in midair. And the only thing keeping you from drifting away is the person’s eyes. They’re connected to yours by some invisible physical force, and they hold you fast while the rest of the world swirls and twirls and falls completely away. 

— Wendelin Van Draanen, Flipped

How much you put into a relationship

 determines how much it will hurt when it ends.

how much is love..

girl: how much do you love me? 

boy: to the positive infinity.

girl: *swoons*

the next day….

girl: how much do you love me? 

boy: mali naman yung tanong mo eh… hindi nasusukat ang love. 

i secretly call him kid and he doesn’t need to know

hello me. this is my online blog, no one knows it exists, well except the owner of this site. none of my friends knows about this site. there. i dont always blog, i dont even have anything in my mind right now worthy to be written down.  to be known by people. i blog whenever i get the hang of it,most of the time im too lazy to write anything, since i dont really have access to the net 24/7, i visit my uncle’s place from time to time to  be a freeloader on their weefee. i horde on loading songs whenever im here, bands per bands, songs, even if i can’t think of any songs in mind. (i dont know if how many times have i used the word mind today and i plan to use it more so ef you.).. i so want my own place, but i cant find the time to look for one. plus the funds oh dear. i dont know when to start saving for it. i owe people money so i gotta pay them first. the citibank people, well anyway, they’re almost paid. almost. 2 paydays more. then next is the super fly slim tv of LG, i just hope that its resolution is not that disappointing. what’s so fly about it is that it swivel’s.. cool huh? 

i know that those LCD tv’s are far more flyyy than that tv that im aiming to buy. for now since i dont have the super fly money to buy that fly tv, this is good for now. 

then i suddenly thought of letter x… i lost my love for him. i think he’s right when he told me that, he actually made me realized why i started acting out, not paying that much attention to him,.. i lost it maybe because he’s too far. he said i used to be so sweet, and before he used to be so cold. 

originally written- feb 16, 2010

got this from a friend’s blog..

and i felt like the same thing today…

“trying to make someone fall inlove with you

is about as pointless as trying to control who you fall in love with..“

spotted @ something fishy

today i came in 2 hours late, good thing i was able to stand up for my word when i said im going to close today even if im gonna be late.  i was in something fishy at eastwood libis today.

i can’t remember the last time i was in eastwood. it’s been a while i guess. anyway, seeing my old mamam buddies still going strong, stronger actually, was kind of a relief that even if some of them already have families, they are still able to have mamam sessions with us from time to time. i also wish that i could also do the same even if im already married.

ill try to upload some pictures.

100 movie challenge

im trying to do this 100 film challenge for 2008.
i don’t know the mechanics, i just read it on my friend’s blog. what i know is you have to finish 100 movies before 2008 ends.

and im taking this chance to watch those movies i missed for the past years on big screen. and some are old movies i never had the chance to watch.

but so far, i’ve watched…

Godfather
Pirates of the Caribbean: World’s End
Scarface
Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants
Practical Magic
The Notebook
Forces of Nature
Hostel II
Resident Evil: Extinction
Eyes Wide Shut
4 Weddings and a Funeral
Happy Feet
Alvin and the Chipmunks
A River runs through
Lake House
Saw IV
Wicker Park
Beowulf
The Holiday
Ghost
Sweeney Todd

that’s it so far.. so how many more to go? 1..2…. 20! 80 more to go. the progress of this challenge is kinda slow though. it’s the 5th month and ive only watched 20 movies..

well, how disappointingly slow my movie challenge is going, im happy with how fast my tv series challenge-yourself is going.

 Prison Break 1,2,3
 Heroes 1 (and up to 10nth episodes of season 2)
 Gossip Girl 1
 Samurai X
 Grey’s Anatomy (season 1,2 and up to 10nth ep of season 3)
 Friends (all seasons)

there. and i still plan to watch Bionic Woman, and i think no one, in the very accommodating great pirates of quiapo has it yet. and ive been waiting for season 7 to finish in the states so we, the Filipino’s, can have a complete pirated DVD of season 7.

now ive been looking for this movies, they say they’re greats.

  Pulp Fiction
  Reservoir Dogs
  Memento
  Waking Life
  PI
  Adaptation and more.

more, more to go! its a great challenge,more movies more fun!

blast from the past.. (considered 1st entry of 2009)

as usual, late as i am. i don’t want to be late. but it’s something i do when im stressed. i already stopped being late, for about a month there, but i came back.. suddenly i felt i need to be late. para mapansin. - i just recovered this post which has been written last year on my demented days.. i just realiezed how papansin i can be. i am whoring for his attention that never mind may professional status. jeez.

bangs mania! and random things

 and then there’s bangs.. yeba!

people have been going gaga over this hairstyle, celebrities, professionals, teenagers and i must admit it’s really cool. that’s why i want one! and ive been wishing to have a bangs ever since the world begun, but i just can’t. my hair is ugly-curly by the way. then last sunday, i finally found a salon where i could have my hair straightened. im supposed to try rebonding, atleast i thought that its the same as japanese straight, but its actually better according to the beauticians. and i would like to belive them because ive never tried hair rebonding.

im actually excited wiv mah nu hair style! oh yeah! out of frustration na ren kaya nagawa ko to. normally kasi they say na if frustrated ka in something, people cut their hair. me on the other hand, just wanted it.. yeah right.

xxx

i tried to close my first metro buy ever this morning before i went home, we’re almost on the last part and the customer’s phone battery went off. ive been calling him back and all im getting right now is an answering machine.darn. i just hope he doesn’t change his mind though.. 

xxx

i heard that he finally opened his bussiness, Bicho! yeba! it’s located in Buendia LRT station. it’s just 10 pesos each bicho. if you feel hungry and you’re in the area, grab a bite of bicho bites!

xxx

my apologies to you me love, i was caught sleeping whilst you were gone.  yari na naman ako nito bukas. sheesh!

happy text

 

Nye. hndi nmn ako aalis. nag leave lng. dami lng gagawn.ü he he. wag k magalala, treat kta palagi. ü

—>simpleng text galing sa kanya, kahit walang ibig sabihin yan sa kanya, para sa akin langit na yan.

 

 

spotted

last night was a blast! i wanna thank joy for treating me out.

and then there’s the excruciating head ache morning after hitting the bottom of beverages like vodka cruiser and smirnoff ice.

i was minding my own business when joy asked me out.. we didn’t have any plans yet on where to go, so we decided to meet first at metrowalk around 10. and since she’s paying, i want her to make all the decisions. hehe.. we decided to hit decades first in metrowalk, and because were the only ones present there after our first bottle of vodka cruiser, we decided to transfer to decades timog. good thing we did because atleast there, you wouldn’t think it’s sunday night with the number of people present.

so when the alcohol is starting to take its toll on us, we started groovin’, dancing our asses out, like who cares if there are boys smiling at us like vultures waiting for us to smile back so they could do their thing. we’re just 2 ladies, having fun. ofcourse there’s that little hope of meeting someone. the good ones ofcourse. hehe

masochist? nah..

i like pain..reminds me of being alive.

rejection, just a word but could damage you just as hard.

a visit with the tooth fairy

yesterday i had a simple tooth extraction. at first i tooth..err, i thought there’s gonna be a minor surgery involved since it’s the wisdom tooth that’s affected, thank God its not. and im surprised to know that extractions doesn’t hurt anymore. i had 4 temporary filling, and one permanent filland i also had my annual prophylaxis..it’s a one time thing and i chose this month to get my teeth cleaned. hehe. the dentist was nice enough to let me know that i could take advantage of the unlimited temporary filling that i have and unlimited tooth extraction.. goodness, as if we could have all the teeth extracted. 

coz as far as i can remember it, the first and last time i got an invasive procedure like this is when i was in 3rd grade.. that was the only time i had a simple extraction and damn it hurts. i was shouting my lungs out and im moving my body there and here trying to let go of their grip. those adult hands who’s been pinning me down so my dentist could do his job. but mind you, she’s not doing her job correctly coz im feeling pain during the whole procedure. and because they’re having a hard time getting it out of my gums, and because of my constant whaling and screaming they coudn’t take it no more, so they sent me home instead. and the dentist asked my cousins to tell me my mom about it, about me getting so freakingly coward about my tooth getting pulled out. who wouldn’t??

 if you were just there, getting that extraction, you would have understand. there’s definitely no anesthesia on that one. but what’s funny about this memory is that whenever we visit the dentist, we go there altogether. so we all get a tooth extraction at the same time. we all get to ask our parents to buy us an ice cream or ice drop or ice candy, whichever is available.what i know is we have a reason to be spoiled.