got this from a friend’s blog..

and i felt like the same thing today…

“trying to make someone fall inlove with you

is about as pointless as trying to control who you fall in love with..“

dear boss bansot.

i was late, ive put on attitude, i was an ass for sleeping, not even sleeping just pretending to be asleep so i could annoy the hell out of him, well i did. his nose was like on fire. so after the shift he asked our team to stay, for a grueling hour of sermon, he hit it right close to home. the content of it all, almost, points directly to me. i get it, im guilty.. so after the sermon i talked to him, but i was too nervous to be near him, almost alone (coz the next person is like 3 yards away plus their heads are kind of hidden), that i couldn’t think of a better way to say things, ive practiced a good opening act prior to the talk, but the butterflies wont leave my stomach alone, so the worse came out. i just said im sorry and it didn’t even last a minute i guess.

but here’s what i actually want i meant..

Ang dami kong gustong sabihin but i don’t know how to start .. i guess the best way to do it is to say sorry. I am not sleeping, but i didn’t know that if act like im slacking or if i show you some lack of interest on my work  it would make you look bad. i just want you to notice me, that’s all. you don’t really talk to me when i close a sale, unlike if i do it the other way, you’ll be asking me what my problem was.

i have an attitude problem i know, and i am trying to do something about it, so i think that you should atleast give me some credit for trying. and feeling ko ako na lang lagi mong nakikita sa floor, lahat ng mali ko. which sometimes fuels my drive to make you mad, or to get you pissed off. and when im annoyed i tend to forget that you’re my boss. how can someone be so small, be annoying and at the same time be so cute? only you can pull that off.

spotted @ something fishy

today i came in 2 hours late, good thing i was able to stand up for my word when i said im going to close today even if im gonna be late.  i was in something fishy at eastwood libis today.

i can’t remember the last time i was in eastwood. it’s been a while i guess. anyway, seeing my old mamam buddies still going strong, stronger actually, was kind of a relief that even if some of them already have families, they are still able to have mamam sessions with us from time to time. i also wish that i could also do the same even if im already married.

ill try to upload some pictures.

100 movie challenge

im trying to do this 100 film challenge for 2008.
i don’t know the mechanics, i just read it on my friend’s blog. what i know is you have to finish 100 movies before 2008 ends.

and im taking this chance to watch those movies i missed for the past years on big screen. and some are old movies i never had the chance to watch.

but so far, i’ve watched…

Godfather
Pirates of the Caribbean: World’s End
Scarface
Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants
Practical Magic
The Notebook
Forces of Nature
Hostel II
Resident Evil: Extinction
Eyes Wide Shut
4 Weddings and a Funeral
Happy Feet
Alvin and the Chipmunks
A River runs through
Lake House
Saw IV
Wicker Park
Beowulf
The Holiday
Ghost
Sweeney Todd

that’s it so far.. so how many more to go? 1..2…. 20! 80 more to go. the progress of this challenge is kinda slow though. it’s the 5th month and ive only watched 20 movies..

well, how disappointingly slow my movie challenge is going, im happy with how fast my tv series challenge-yourself is going.

 Prison Break 1,2,3
 Heroes 1 (and up to 10nth episodes of season 2)
 Gossip Girl 1
 Samurai X
 Grey’s Anatomy (season 1,2 and up to 10nth ep of season 3)
 Friends (all seasons)

there. and i still plan to watch Bionic Woman, and i think no one, in the very accommodating great pirates of quiapo has it yet. and ive been waiting for season 7 to finish in the states so we, the Filipino’s, can have a complete pirated DVD of season 7.

now ive been looking for this movies, they say they’re greats.

  Pulp Fiction
  Reservoir Dogs
  Memento
  Waking Life
  PI
  Adaptation and more.

more, more to go! its a great challenge,more movies more fun!

blast from the past.. (considered 1st entry of 2009)

as usual, late as i am. i don’t want to be late. but it’s something i do when im stressed. i already stopped being late, for about a month there, but i came back.. suddenly i felt i need to be late. para mapansin. - i just recovered this post which has been written last year on my demented days.. i just realiezed how papansin i can be. i am whoring for his attention that never mind may professional status. jeez.

bangs mania! and random things

 and then there’s bangs.. yeba!

people have been going gaga over this hairstyle, celebrities, professionals, teenagers and i must admit it’s really cool. that’s why i want one! and ive been wishing to have a bangs ever since the world begun, but i just can’t. my hair is ugly-curly by the way. then last sunday, i finally found a salon where i could have my hair straightened. im supposed to try rebonding, atleast i thought that its the same as japanese straight, but its actually better according to the beauticians. and i would like to belive them because ive never tried hair rebonding.

im actually excited wiv mah nu hair style! oh yeah! out of frustration na ren kaya nagawa ko to. normally kasi they say na if frustrated ka in something, people cut their hair. me on the other hand, just wanted it.. yeah right.

xxx

i tried to close my first metro buy ever this morning before i went home, we’re almost on the last part and the customer’s phone battery went off. ive been calling him back and all im getting right now is an answering machine.darn. i just hope he doesn’t change his mind though.. 

xxx

i heard that he finally opened his bussiness, Bicho! yeba! it’s located in Buendia LRT station. it’s just 10 pesos each bicho. if you feel hungry and you’re in the area, grab a bite of bicho bites!

xxx

my apologies to you me love, i was caught sleeping whilst you were gone.  yari na naman ako nito bukas. sheesh!

wednesday morning..

 funny pero di nya ako isinabay today.. =( 

promise pinipigilan kong masaktan.

hopelessly moping

 
naweweirduhan na ko sa sarili ko.

pag nasa fx ako.
sa banyo. bago maligo man o bago tumae.
kapag nagbibihis ako.
kapag kausap ko kaibigan ko.
kapag naglalakad ako.
kapag nanonood ako.
kapag nagbabasa ako.
kapg kumakain ako. sa hapag kainan ng bahay namen o sa labas.
kahit pag nagpaplantsa ako ng buhok.
at kahit na kaharap na kita.

basta naalala kita bigla akong napapangiti.
lagi mo akong napapangiti, ang matindi nito eh kahit na wala ka napapangiti mo pa rin ako. ngiting abot tenga pa. ngiting aso. ah basta! pag ikaw naalala ko, lagi akong nakangiti. minsan natatawa  pa nga ako. weird talaga.

and i don’t really care what others think but i can’t help it.  you never cease to make me smile whenever i think of you, or your name pops up in a conversation..and shit you’re planning on leaving and i don’t know what to do next. 

and i can’t stop smiling.

and if you go, i might not stop being sad.

random thoughts

dumating siya kagabi para lang ihatid yung mga t-shirts namen. kala ko pa naman he would actually stay ng atleast 4 hours, but no. dumating, nagfile ng leave tapos umalis. goodluck naman. oh dear, i miss him.

i need to close atleast one today. i wanted to hit a thousand this month.. at least a thousand.

———-

skin problem. im developing this chicken-like-skins recently. kaya todo iwas manok ako ngayon! kahit itlog or anything na merong halo nun. miss ko na si KFC tuloy.

happy text

 

Nye. hndi nmn ako aalis. nag leave lng. dami lng gagawn.ü he he. wag k magalala, treat kta palagi. ü

—>simpleng text galing sa kanya, kahit walang ibig sabihin yan sa kanya, para sa akin langit na yan.

 

 

spotted

last night was a blast! i wanna thank joy for treating me out.

and then there’s the excruciating head ache morning after hitting the bottom of beverages like vodka cruiser and smirnoff ice.

i was minding my own business when joy asked me out.. we didn’t have any plans yet on where to go, so we decided to meet first at metrowalk around 10. and since she’s paying, i want her to make all the decisions. hehe.. we decided to hit decades first in metrowalk, and because were the only ones present there after our first bottle of vodka cruiser, we decided to transfer to decades timog. good thing we did because atleast there, you wouldn’t think it’s sunday night with the number of people present.

so when the alcohol is starting to take its toll on us, we started groovin’, dancing our asses out, like who cares if there are boys smiling at us like vultures waiting for us to smile back so they could do their thing. we’re just 2 ladies, having fun. ofcourse there’s that little hope of meeting someone. the good ones ofcourse. hehe

of tuesday mornings

i look forward on tuesday mornings with you..

i love tuesday mornings.. and now i miss it. i miss every morning that we go home together.

but its wednesday and ive been silently wishing for this day to finally come. monday you’re absent, so i wished for tuesday to come. tuesday comes.. and still you’re not here.. so  i wished for wednesday, and it’s wednesday.. and im wating for you, secretly.. silently.. even if you arrive last minute before lunch is over. just come to work. please just come…

drunk and wasted and missing you

 my head hurts, im feeling heavy, mind disoriented,i feel like im about to blow anytime. and have no idea how the hell i got home. damn red horse. now i dont feel like eating lunch.  but i ignored all this because of my hopes that my fave manager would be at work and feeling well. but to my disappointment, he’s still didn’t go to work today. he said he’s sick. but i miss him. and i want him to come to work. coz that’s the only way that i could see him.

see, i am wasted.

a visit with the tooth fairy

yesterday i had a simple tooth extraction. at first i tooth..err, i thought there’s gonna be a minor surgery involved since it’s the wisdom tooth that’s affected, thank God its not. and im surprised to know that extractions doesn’t hurt anymore. i had 4 temporary filling, and one permanent filland i also had my annual prophylaxis..it’s a one time thing and i chose this month to get my teeth cleaned. hehe. the dentist was nice enough to let me know that i could take advantage of the unlimited temporary filling that i have and unlimited tooth extraction.. goodness, as if we could have all the teeth extracted. 

coz as far as i can remember it, the first and last time i got an invasive procedure like this is when i was in 3rd grade.. that was the only time i had a simple extraction and damn it hurts. i was shouting my lungs out and im moving my body there and here trying to let go of their grip. those adult hands who’s been pinning me down so my dentist could do his job. but mind you, she’s not doing her job correctly coz im feeling pain during the whole procedure. and because they’re having a hard time getting it out of my gums, and because of my constant whaling and screaming they coudn’t take it no more, so they sent me home instead. and the dentist asked my cousins to tell me my mom about it, about me getting so freakingly coward about my tooth getting pulled out. who wouldn’t??

 if you were just there, getting that extraction, you would have understand. there’s definitely no anesthesia on that one. but what’s funny about this memory is that whenever we visit the dentist, we go there altogether. so we all get a tooth extraction at the same time. we all get to ask our parents to buy us an ice cream or ice drop or ice candy, whichever is available.what i know is we have a reason to be spoiled.